Waiting, Fighting, and Praying

I've been thinking about this post for a while. I have a bit of a headache right now, so I am not sure how coherent my thoughts will be, but I hope that you'll be able to follow my meanderings.

I went to my oncologist this week with a pre-conceived notion of what would happen there. I knew that there would be changes in my medical protocol or treatment, or in my tumors. I knew that something would be different. BUT it wasn't. No changes in tumors, no changes in treatment, no offerings of anything different. I thought I was prepared for anything that might come my way but I don't think I was prepared to hear that there were no changes in my tumors.

Now I am sure you are wondering where I am going with this and I am not sure I have all the words I need to make myself clear, but hang tight. I'll get there eventually.

This particular appointment had been a matter of prayer for me and several of my friends. To see that doing nothing was an answer for prayer was a bit disconcerting to me. I want to feel like I am doing something, that I am fighting this evil thing that lives in me. And sometimes my monthly injection doesn't feel like I am doing much. This morning as I was working through my Bible Study and my morning devotions, the thought hit me, I am not fighting cancer, but I am fighting principalities and powers and I do not war --- well, let me let Paul tell you how I am fighting: 2 Corinthians 10:3-5 For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. 5We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ,..... So now I see what God is telling me. I AM fighting, I am doing all that I need to do and I need to wait on Him. So I pray as I wait, and I wait as I pray, but in the meantime, life goes on and I need to live it for Him.